.JUDGEMENT DAY.

tomorrow wud be day!
the day of everything!
the day that will tell whether im good, great or a failure!

anyway,

im trying my best to stay focus.

stay alert and never gonna do any silly mistake.

kejayaan hari esok adalah segalanya.

cewah!
macam iklan apa la pulak.

im just hoping for the best.

and im gonna do my very best!
berjuang hingga ke titisan darah terakhir.

sempena merdeka, haruslah berdrama patriotik sebentar.

harap-harapnya dapatlah QA yang super cool and best.

janganlah dapat macam hari tu.

jangan!
takmo!
have to yakin with meself.

okaylah.

nak update pasal today punya activity, badan sangat penat dan tahap menaip agak slow.

jadi, akan bercerita pada keesokan harinya.

have to tidur awal sebab nak bangun awal.

kene lawan juga mata degil ni!

good night dearest!

p/s: rasa macam puasa tahun ni bukan puasa sangat sebab tahap haus dan lapar taklah ketara macam tahun-tahun lepas.

.PLEASE! I NEED A BOYFRIEND!.

so, yeah!

im indeed in need of a boyfriend.

why?

because im desperately need one lah!

hish!

sebelum kamu kamu nak memaki hamun dan mengutuk i sambil scroll blog ni, please stop!

sebelum, kamu kamu jump into conclusion,im not the one yang nak boyfriend,its for my cutie heart and soul, PUTERI.

yeah!

she's my cat.

age: almost 1

walaupun masih young and dangerous, tapi sudah merenyam nak ada boyfriend.

so, me n my mum decide nak kawinkan je.

but, every boy cat yang datang semuanya tidak memenuhi kriteria.

selalunya in term of colour la.

kalau boleh, i taknak warna kuning, orange, yellow or yang kene mengena dengan colour yang sudah disebut sebentar tadi.

so, stop sending pictures of your cat yang ada warna sebegini.

i dah penat tolak semua aplication kamu.

kalau boleh, i nak warna greyish ke, chocolate ke or warna lain yang dari warna yang diharamkan tadi.

faham?

still ada yang geleng?

haih!

dah tak tahu nak explain macam mana!

senang-senang, i ada selitkan a few pictures of her below for your reference,

so, if your cat ada colour yang ada pada badan my cat, i reject!

sebab taknak sama colour, sebabnya, sebabnya,

SUKA HATILAH!
hish!

p/s: okay! thats it. if anything, just email me at amadela_star@yahoo.com

.PLEASE STALK ME, U MADAM STALKER.

dear stalker,

are u so damn pathetic that u actually wanna know about me?

wanna know about a person that u claimed u hate so much?

then, kenapa baca my blog?

dun u think its kinda pathetic?

how i know u're reading my blog?

hish...i know la...a little birdie told me.

what makes me wanna laugh all day is how u actually google me!

makes me macam orang famous pulak...yang kamu harus meng'google' untuk mecari di manakah blog saya.

kamu kata kamu benci saya.

jelik dengan perangai saya.

saya sudah mati bagi kamu.

bla bla bla.

tapi, kamu rupa-rupanya masih berminat ingin tahu mengenai kehidupan harian saya.

sungguh comel kelakuan kamu.

tapi, tidak mengapa wahai stalker ku yang setia.

saya ada sedikit bangga dengan kelakuan kamu sebab saya TIDAK pernah mahu tahu mengenai kamu dan kawan-kawan kamu.

hanya satu sebabnya.

saya sudah tidak kene mengena dengan kamu.

orang selalu tanya, apakah perkara yang paling saya regret sepanjang 25 tahun ni,

jawapannya adalah berjumpa dan berkawan dengan kamu.

jika saya ada butang 'rewind', saya akan delete segalanya.

jangan salah anggap, saya tidak benci kamu,

tidak sama sekali, sepertimana kamu membenci saya.

saya tiada masa yang banyak untuk membenci kamu atau mengambil tahu pasal kamu.

saya cuma berharap kamu bahagia dengan apa yang kamu ada.

saya berharap dan berdoa kamu berhenti menganggu saya.

kerana saya tidak pernah sekalipun menganggu kamu.

saya minta kamu berhenti bercakap pasal saya ketika kamu berkumpul bersama konco-konco kamu.

saya sudah tidak buat itu semua.

berjumpa hanya semata mahu mengata dan mentertawakan orang lain.

saya sudah dewasa.

tiada masa.

p/s: kawan-kawan saya kini lebih menghargai saya. dan saya juga sedang belajar menghargai mereka dengan sepenuh hati.

.BORING SATURDAY.

so, today is saturday.

im so damn bored.

facebooking all day long.

suddenly, sasha ajak me to watch a movie.

haruslah terus setuju tanpa berdolak-dalik.

katakan iya dengan wayang!

tajuk yang dipilih adalah step up 3, sebabnya hanya satu, poster yang menarik perhatian mata dan hero yang menggegar jantung dan jiwa!

wajib tengok. a great combination of marketing di situ.

bila sudah mahu beli tiket, abang india jaga tiket cakap dengan muka yang tak berapa cute.."FULL HOUSE"

sasha tengok i, i tengok sasha, kecewa tahap dewa dewi.

hati tetap nak tengok wayang.

pilihan diteruskan.

and the pick of the day is "THE DESCENT 2"

one word can describe this movie...DISGUSTING!

bukan disguting tak best, disguting ngeri!

blood is EVERYWHERE!

tajuk seharusnya THE BLOODY 2"
so not cool bila tengok wayang jerit-jerit, carut-carut, dan pelbagai aksi yang jarang dibuat ketika tengok wayang sudah dilakukan pada malam ini!

bila i tengok sebelah i, si sasha dah tutp TELINGA awal-awal, bukan mulut ye..telinga yang ditutupnya.

apa-apa pun ending sungguh menyakitkan hati!

korang kalau nak tengok movie ni disnasihatkan jangan makan apa-apa, sebab darah terlalu banyak sampaikan rasa air paip ke darah tu?

tapi, siapa yang suka tengok cerita kill kill die die, this is your ultimate choice.

p/s: i perlukan cahaya matahari lepas tengok cerita ni. lagi satu, kalau nak pegi cuti tak payah gedik nak explore hutan-hutan gunung-ganang atau gua-gua...hotel, mall and view lain yg cantik berlambak je!

.THE MEANEST WITCH EVER.

a few days back i have an assesment called mock call.

i tot its gonna be fun because when we're doing our role play, its super fun and all.

boy! how i am wrong and this makes me terperanjat all of a sudden.

ye la.

me got a the most tough ridiculous QA ever!

turns out to be this QA is the toughest!

the meanest!

the ruthless!

the most evil of them all.

fave thing to do is mem'fatal'kan all the newbies.

all the cases and the twisted cases yang dia bagi is all ridiculous!

i mean i never even tot in my mind yg dia actually nak bagi that kind of cases.

yeah! i know, its all part of the learning process, but, hagak-hagak la wei!

i keep on complaining about this non stop.

and i dare say, its not my fault at all!

she has to bear in mind la yg im a newbie,still nak cope with all thi stuff!

dia boleh pula nak anggap me as dah lama keje and all!

motiffff????!!!!

im pissed with this situation since my luck always dapat org macam HER!

why?

she seems nice at first,but, lepas tu, she's turning into an evil monster that i cant stop fatalling me!

wtf?!

takkan la dia tak ingat masa dia dulu,macam mana?

siap bermegah bagai cakap yg dia masa like me, NEVER fatal even once!

rasa macam nak tunjuk je finger yang berkenaan.

serius tipu!

but, lepas tu dia rephrase balik, dia adalah fatal, but, itupun dia SENGAJA 'memfatalkan' diri sebab nanti malaslah if org kata dia punya record perfect sangat!

motifffff???!

if my hidung boleh keluar asap time tu, dah berkepul agaknya!

yang buatkan me sangat sad is bila nak menghadap muka my trainer,

shes super nice and i never see anyone like her. EVER!!! i mean after my fave lect when im in uni she the second one la yang paling hip hip hurray sekali bila mengajar!

yela...the hopes yang my trainer put to each of us, macam dah berderai-derai dah!

maybe some of you akan kata jangan salahkan org dengan kegagalan sendiri, but, im totally right in this situation.

plus, im a type of person yg not easily getting nervous when around people.

so, im telling you, this QA sucks!

the end.

p/s: masa OJA nanti if dapat dia, i think i have to send all my resumes siap-siap sebab dia memang suka fail kan org. i hope shes happy tutup rezeki org macam tu.

BUKA PUASA HARUS HAPPY

bila sudah puasa dua hari, kehendak nafsu pelahap untuk makan dan minum di tempat sedap

amat tinggi.

bila puasa, keinginan untuk makan di tempat fancy tidaklah setinggi keinginan untuk mendapat kepastian agar makanan itu comfirm deliyummy all the way kan?

bila puasa, kalau dapat makan yang rasa macam hampeh atau erti kata lain kalau bagi makanan tu pada kucing pun, kucing akan palingkan muka cari makanan lain, haruslah dibaling pinggan di muka owner kedai tersebut!

jadi, saya pun begitu.

nak makan sedap bila puasa.

itu sebablah keinginan nak ke bazaar tidak setinggi langit

sebab tahu makcik dan akak yang masak akan hanya fikir untung.

garam takde!

rasa takde!

perencah pun takde!

itu bukan makanan!

itu hanya keuntungan semata!

and me dun likey becauce its icky!

today,

saya berfikir ingin berbuka di mana sehinggalah kawan kata jom makan di KL sentral memandangkan itu sahaja tempat terdekat yang boleh menggunakan LRT dari menara telekom.

sebab kami tiada kereta lagi. T_T

off we go!

sampai sana, mata sudah jemu ingin makan fastfood.

tiba-tiba, saya bagi suggestion makan di Restoran Kabul.

tgk decor sangat puas dan sambil senyum masuk dan pilih tempat yang ada cushion paling comfy dan sempat camera whoring! teehee.

then, order nasi beriani ayam yang MAHA SEDAP.

teh ais yang EXCELLENT!

sekian.

one word. SEDAP.

p/s: hanya nak kongsi pengalaman makan di situ sebab duit anda sangat berbaloi!

A.LETTER.FOR.AYAH.

dearest ayah,

today is known as month of ramadhan.

the memories of you came rushing to me as if you are always there watching me from heaven.

today makes me feel like you are near to me.

very near.

always can feel your love and your words of wisdom that can always give me courage no matter what.

several days im in KL, there are so many things happening.

good or bad, and how i really wish you are there when i call mak to tell her everything.

how our own relative can treat me as bad as that.

there are several reasons why i am proud to be your daughter.

how i became who i am today is mostly because you always thaught me never ever give up in life and there is alot of things that i have to go through.

ayah,

you always found time to spent with me.

how u always take me to trips and to exciting adventures.

how u endure my hobbies and passion towards pets.

how u actually treat me as your own little princess when i called u crying like hell just because i cant take it how the seniors in my uni treat us juniors like trash.

u never laugh whenever i cry over petty things.

u pat me in the shoulder when i cry about my cat died.and my hamster.and my rabbit. and my fish.

how i love it when you call me 'akak' or 'nor hidayah' whenever u upset with me.

you're the only one call me by my full name when u are reeeeaaalllyyyy mad with me.

u support me all the way with my hobbies in writing eventhough i never actually published it.

u gave all the comforting words when i have problems with my friends.

u always believe in me.

i have all the memories vividly in my head.

ayah,

u dun have the lots of money to give me everything that i ever wanted.

but, thats okay.

you gave a better gift in life.

how you teach me how to appreciate others and never lose my smile eventhough i have the world's problem on my shoulder. (cants say i actually can do that, but i tried my best)

its been two years since you left me, mum and abang.

how i miss you.

miss your jokes that always made my day.

make me laugh eventhough i dun have the mood for any laughter.

you actually made that happen.

how i see u as my super dad.

ayah,

mum always cried until today whenever she thinking of you.

when i saw ur regular chair in the dining table, it makes my heart crush a bit.

sometimes, i can always sense ur presence in our house, in my room, but, i know its just a feeling due to me missing you.

i always pray for u, never a day i forgot to do that.

it just the only way i can cherish you over there.

i really hope u can find peace and u are at a better place now.

wait for us to accompany you one day.

i miss u ayah.

i really do!

your daughter,

nor hidayah

.RAMADHAN AND RAYA.

salam.

selamat berpuasa to all muslimin and muslimah.

first of all,

puasa ni wud be the second me having without my dad.

sebak.sedih.sayu.semua pun ada.

anyway,

yang penting my doa always with him and this puasa will be the saddest ever sebab MAYBE tak dapat cuti.

darn!
my mum dah all sad.

siap nak memberontak tak nak pakai baju raya.

motif?

sebab anak perempuan sorang tak de beside her to celebrate the raya.

my abang dah pandang slack sebab dia bagaikan patung lilin takleh nak komen apa-apa.

haha.

haih!

time-time macam ni,

dah siap fikir kenapa ayah tak kaya dan ada half share dengan vads or telekom.

senang nak cuti!

ces!

itu hanya angan indah yang takkan jadi kenyataan.

kalau cantik macam aishwarya rai boleh tackle abang ceo telekom dan minta cuti!

yes!

abang ke?

whatever!
sudah merapu kerana laparkan cuti raya!

nak cuti!

nak cuti!

but how?

silent di situ...

kalau fikir positive,

bila tak cuti, gaji akan banyak sebab dikira triple.

waaahhhhh~

kaya!

but then, its raya people.

the day we hang around with cousins and relatives.

the only time that we can meet them and talk. and laugh.and eat.and jalan-jalan.and macam-macam.

the only precious time that anyone can never regain back no matter what they do.

maybe sebab saya ni memang family person.

amat penting bila ada bersama family setiap masa!

tiba-tiba rindu pada mak!

haih!

p/s: always jeles with all the officemate yang ada peluang makan hasil tangan mak tiap-tipa hari...make me think of my mumu....T_T

.HAPPY ENDING.

its been ages since i've updated this beloved blog of mine

first of all, nak cakap pasal diri yang tak berapa sempurna ini sudah pun memulakan hidup yang sempurna.

yup! i have my own place that i can call home.

so damn comfy and its totally me.

sungguh gembira sehinggakan menitis air mata suka suki.

boleh swim every nite dengan seronoknya dengan tujuan suci untuk kuruskan badan.

bolehkah?

kita tunggu dan lihat! (kalau makan tak kurang tak payah tunggu dan lihat!)

for starters,

just nak cakap pasal rumah.

cantik

selesa

bersih

seronok

security bagus

convenient store banyaaak

mamak dekat

cafe banyak

the end

p/s: saya suka